"People always leave".---This is one line from my favorite series (one tree hill), mentioned by Peyton Sawyer, one of the lead characters...and she used to say this at times na she felt alone...I hate the line but I loved her in that series:)
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Hi angel..ngaun nlng ulit aq nkpagpost s blog.after 5 or 6 days?ok watever.haha. coz i had no time para mkpagpost ulet these past few days.i can say na they're the days na i won't forget...cold, sad and hurting days..
well.how are you?me i'm okay now..pero 3 days ago.hindi q lang alam kung anong nangyare.hahaha.
you see.sa lahat ng nangyare nitong mga nkaraang araw...i'm finally believing what peyton says..dati naiinis aq sa kanya sa one tree hill coz she's very bitter.lam mo un na parang she has no reasons at all to feel that way naman..then she's choosing to be bitter..murmuring always the words,"people always leave"...i really hate the line before but now.yeah.it's kinda true.it sucks.pero un ang totoo.kahit there are lots of people around you na hindi naman nagpaparamdam sa yo na iiwan ka or iniwanan ka...still at one point of our lives, sooner....the thing we are treasuring most will be gone or the people we are cherishing the most will leave...and that's one inevitable thing in this world that we all have to face..because once the people we loved most left us...if we won't be strong enough to face the loneliness and tears from being left by them..we won't only lose them..but we may also lose ourselves...and that's the hardest part..when in the process of fighting for what you love and what you don't want to lose..e you are slowly losing yourself...
maybe that's the saddest truth..sa totoo lang...alam mo b ung feeling na parang..sa hindi pinakang inaasahan na panahon pa mangyayari ung mga ganon kasakit na bagay...when you ought to think na everything's fine.tapos..boom!ganyan pala....ung bang sakit sakit lang..but above it all, hindi lang ako ung nsaktan...lahat ng minamhal ko na iniwan din..hell..maybe.idk.it just felt that way.
i hate to cry..but i had to cry.mga 2 days...maybe it's my way to keep me okay..crybaby nman tlga aq.pero lam mo ung hindi mapigilang iyak ba..aun.well.it just hurts.but maybe if what happened will be the only way for us to realize things...for evryone to be better and happy.e di so be it!let time nlng take things back to where they really should belong...e di ba babalik nman ung mga umaalis..kung in God's will e babalik tlga sila.pero if not, then i guess we just have to prepare ourselve for that...
i hate goodbyes too.naku! just the word makes me sick...nasanay kasi aq na laging may ksama...c dadi q kc at momi..super sanay aq na anjan cla.minsan nga e cla pa napili ng dadamitin q...and whatever i do, i always consult them...so i find it really hard to be left kasi i grew up in a world where my mom and dad are always there for me at never nila pinaramdam sa akin na iiwan nila okay.kaya nman, aq...ayoko rin mang-iwan because that's not something i was taught by my momi and dadi.i find it hard to say goodbye..and i find it harder to listen to the word goodbye.
Pero di ba?anong mgagawa q kung ganon?magmamatter ba kung iiyak aq ng iiyak dahil iniwan aq? or will my actions matter para maiwasang iwanan?what if kelngan niya tlga umalis di ba? who to blame? well.idk.i really don't know.
Right now, i'm hoping that things will be fine. i hate to see the people i love na naiwan din e lonely and hurting....parang it is breaking my heart tlga...literal.haha.yeah.it really breaks my heart to see them crying...pero anong mgagawa q...sa tingin q sa ngaun wala...cguro magppray nlng tlga aq.sana maging ok ang lhat.un lang nman gusto q at hinihiling q..ung maging okay lahat ng minamhal q.
People always leave.yes they do...and that's something i know na will keep me thinking and will keep me asking "why?" at alam ko din na that question will always remain a mystery...not all questions can be answered easily..maybe it's up to me, how will i look for answers or how will i find for reasons..for everything we do has a reason but for some things they are just meant to happen.it's all shaped in destiny...a destiny that we have to continue to live and a destiny we have to accept.
Para sa lahat ng plaging umaalis at nang-iiwan.someday will come na you'll feel tired and think na leaving isn't always the best choice and leaving is not the only way to escape from evrything. and when that day comes you'll regret everything.maybe hindi regrets..maybe spending lifetime wondering and asking questions 'what if' hindi ka umalis...would it be better? but if you believe that leaving is the best decision for you and that would do good to evryone..then maybe..leaving will always be your move to go on living..just remember na leaving won't keep you alive for this world doesn't tells us to step out...because we actually have to step in para matuto at para maging mas matapang....if leaving would mean hurting the one you love and bringing them pain and loneliness but thinking na ginawa mo yun dahil un ung best para sa yo at don ka liligaya...then maybe...leaving would always mean loving for you...if that happens...you will never be happy...not a day would pass na you would always think of staying but there's no other choice so you'd better leave and be on your own...dahil wala ka ng babalikan pa...dahil iniwan mo n at sinaktan lahat ng nagmamahal sa yo...
Para sa lahat ng iniwanan..this is for you. You may not be the strongest person...but you have to be strong and brave to stand again kapag iniwanan ka. comfort yourself when nobody else does..iniwan ka man ng lhat, remember you would never lose yourself as long as in the process of facing pain and loneliness, you should also take care of yourself..para hindi ka rin mawala...malay mo, it is just a way para ma-realize mo na after all..kahit iniwanan ka na...meron pa rin mga tao na isasali ka nman sa mundo nila at hinding hindi ka na iiwan pa. who knows di ba? just be the first person to believe that you can personally move on..at you can even grow better...who the hell would say na hindi mo kya di ba? just build yourself once again...this world is unfair...but it will give you what you deserve...and hold on to the fact..na you're always deserving of what is best...tapos kapag buo ka na ulit..learn to let go, face the world again...live again.love again.be happy again..drating ang araw na paulit ulit ka mang iwanan..paulit ulit mo ring matutunang bumangon at lalong mhalin pa ang sarili mo...di ba? apir! just be positive about it...you may not be the strongest person but you know you can be the best!
hmmm.well.gabi na...good night angel...mag-aaral pa aq...hope tomorrow's fine.and for me...sana matanggap q na ang mga bgay bgay sa akin.mahirap tlaga cguro.but i hope makaya q. don't leave me angel ha...i can't live alone.good night:)